Marzia automatioc writing from 5:13-5:30pm

When I think of hinking I don't like it. When I think of people who think too much they annoy me and before this thought, although conditioned by it, I think of whether I am annoyed with y own behaviour. Being annoyed and thinkign annoying thoughts and sitting in a puddle of lemon juice, creasing my crisprain boots and smiling with my whole face and wondering on the wonder that is wondering, but also-although it is a gift to wonder - I wonder whether it is misplaced on me and think of myself living more in the moment, less thinking about things and setting things up and things being difficult and trying too hasrd and instead it being easy. Easy breezy LEMONS. Lemon face and lemon grab and lemons and the occassional lime. I wonder and wonder about citrusa fruits, and citrus fruits are my mattress so I should qwonder about them I lay in them every day. Did you knowthat the molecular arrangement of a lemon and a lime is the same except mirrored? And did you know that I wonder how much meditation orhow to meditate better to be able to see moresubtely. Subtle and subtler.smaller and smaller again and smaller one more time why not be so small that I could see the small things? Well I guess in those moments it doesn't matter, you'remeditation insight should be stronger.

I wonder about Marzia and Russel Brand because she is deeply attached and I'm sure he is great but I do feelsceptical, especially about finding idols and gods in celebrity, something about the allure of celebrity.but maybe he's justa. Cooldude? I don't know but I hope that her efforts are well-placed.i hope foronly the best for marzia- I hope for the best for myself, but I am more directly indicated in making that happen. Make it happen and happen again and happen harder

Listen,listen again and listen deeper,listen deeper and listen ot he sub bass.i can feelit puffing on my foot and I want a vape and not now not now losing my way losing my way losing my way through thedarkness, she was heartless in everyway PLAGUERISM where's my whatever, and how is my why?> and when is that where anyways.and which was is anyway? And why? And when and where and how and again and around and some nice juicy cock and wanting it and wantin gto to be slower wanting to stop ny automaticness and be made to feel that fuckign poresent- am I a. good lover? Losing my way, in this stangnat canal pond with the ghetto swans, they're just hungry btu what can I do? I am but a mime, I only have imaginary food anyways. Although I am I am I ain't. and what have you with this ain'tness Mr _____ and and and and and and was it stressful? Was it weird? And what was fun in your day? Thinking of not thinking and feeling you.mmmm it stops e and I want it and I willfold clothes when I go hom and it's alright. Writing with Marzia, I am glad for this and am glad that there is such a thing as words and there are people to write with. Breath out.